My breath is … gone. Wow. I know this loneliness. I know this not/wanting. I know this trying to convince myself I am just fine without a relationship, without much money, without my best friend (who died), without without without. It’s really scary to say, “Actually, I really want all of that!” Thank you.
I feel you so deeply, I feel like my brain adapt so quickly to scarcity and loss. And I make sacrifices to protect myself from disappointment. It’s so scary to crave and want love beauty indulgence and we are also worthy.
This is legit beautiful. Please keep writing! I resonate so much and in a world that seeks to shrink people I love this. I think our power lies not in our ability to conceal our humanity from harm but our ability to not be afraid of it.
Yes! Being alive is a wet, sticky, painful joyful, marvellous terrifying ordeal and experience and the closer we can get to holding the fullness of it. I think the better off we all are. I love the way that you framed humanity here, it’s so abundant.
There was a creator on TikTok, a pastor, who said that Christians had mistranslated "peace" in the Greek. That peace wasn't the absence of strife but the presence of fullness. Of being unapologetically yourself, not afraid to lose but committed to self alignment no matter the outcome. I mean I don't know Greek but since myself becoming a scapegoat and a family "truth teller" I can't disagree. I have never had so little while having something I never once had - myself. It's a very bizarre loss/gain. But being in alignment with myself for the first time in 30 years is how I propel my business as well.
I am not a successful startup founder but I find a lot of inspiration in your work and I hope you keep doing it. Especially what you said once about rage - it was perfect. It's what I am doing in my own work. How "rage" is really a cover for grief and grief is to be honored because it tells us that who we are mattered, that something happened which mattered and THAT matters. And beyond grief and rage is yearning. Yearning for something to exist which wasn't there for you, something which you can't give back to yourself in the past so you create it out of your rage and grief for the future in HONOR of your experience. My business which I have is just that. It's a gift for future job seekers in honor of my rage and grief. I give it to myself in the past to honor her by giving it to job seekers in the future. A space not to be rescued in your job search but to be witnessed in your job search. To let you tell the story of your experience in your words.
I suppose it's a "business as art" "business as statue" because I know that many artists do the same.
But anyway, thanks and I'm chatty but really, your presence has weight and your words have value and please keep on keeping on.
Thank you for sharing this. There is so much shame and loneliness in admitting our loneliness and want—until we see others feel it too. It’s emboldening to be reminded we were ALL built for real connection, community, and humanity, and to want and desire good things is evidence of that.
My breath is … gone. Wow. I know this loneliness. I know this not/wanting. I know this trying to convince myself I am just fine without a relationship, without much money, without my best friend (who died), without without without. It’s really scary to say, “Actually, I really want all of that!” Thank you.
I feel you so deeply, I feel like my brain adapt so quickly to scarcity and loss. And I make sacrifices to protect myself from disappointment. It’s so scary to crave and want love beauty indulgence and we are also worthy.
This is legit beautiful. Please keep writing! I resonate so much and in a world that seeks to shrink people I love this. I think our power lies not in our ability to conceal our humanity from harm but our ability to not be afraid of it.
Yes! Being alive is a wet, sticky, painful joyful, marvellous terrifying ordeal and experience and the closer we can get to holding the fullness of it. I think the better off we all are. I love the way that you framed humanity here, it’s so abundant.
There was a creator on TikTok, a pastor, who said that Christians had mistranslated "peace" in the Greek. That peace wasn't the absence of strife but the presence of fullness. Of being unapologetically yourself, not afraid to lose but committed to self alignment no matter the outcome. I mean I don't know Greek but since myself becoming a scapegoat and a family "truth teller" I can't disagree. I have never had so little while having something I never once had - myself. It's a very bizarre loss/gain. But being in alignment with myself for the first time in 30 years is how I propel my business as well.
I am not a successful startup founder but I find a lot of inspiration in your work and I hope you keep doing it. Especially what you said once about rage - it was perfect. It's what I am doing in my own work. How "rage" is really a cover for grief and grief is to be honored because it tells us that who we are mattered, that something happened which mattered and THAT matters. And beyond grief and rage is yearning. Yearning for something to exist which wasn't there for you, something which you can't give back to yourself in the past so you create it out of your rage and grief for the future in HONOR of your experience. My business which I have is just that. It's a gift for future job seekers in honor of my rage and grief. I give it to myself in the past to honor her by giving it to job seekers in the future. A space not to be rescued in your job search but to be witnessed in your job search. To let you tell the story of your experience in your words.
I suppose it's a "business as art" "business as statue" because I know that many artists do the same.
But anyway, thanks and I'm chatty but really, your presence has weight and your words have value and please keep on keeping on.
Thank you for sharing this. There is so much shame and loneliness in admitting our loneliness and want—until we see others feel it too. It’s emboldening to be reminded we were ALL built for real connection, community, and humanity, and to want and desire good things is evidence of that.
Thank you 😊
Let love ruin my old, brittle ideas of worth. ❤️🩹
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